Tears and fears and feeling proud To say I love you right out loud Dreams and schemes and circus crowds I’ve looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed Well something’s lost, but something’s gained In living ev’ry day
I’ve looked at life from both sides now From win and lose and still somehow It’s life’s illusions I recall I really don’t know life at all
-Both sides now, Joni Mitchell
Pre-star wars night is spent, drinking a weird cocktail of anticipation of dread, whining about the lack of green furry yoda ears and post-star wars depression. Having post star wars depression on a pre star wars night sound dumb. Nevertheless, it's sad that the great epic that kept me entertained since my primary school days is coming to an end tomorrow night, 710pm at GV Grand. Sentimentality aside, i hope Georgey Porgey dosen't screw up the ending. I might be forced to hunt him down and kill him :)
Being back at home seems kinda weird. And i find myself accidentally calling Purdue home (much to my parents' horror), and wondering what i would be doing if i hadn't came back (much to MY horror). It did me great favour though, in midst of my bubbling excitement and anticipation of finally returning home after a year, when my sis gave me a sobering bite of the pie, as she explained that returning home isn't all i would anticipate it to be. Time hadn't made a stand still in the year that i was away for, and old friends have moved on and are probably busy with preparing for their A'levels, and caught up in the hectic S'porean life to spare you much time. Reality is a wet blankie. I haven't reached the "bored" staged though, being shipped around amongst doctors, specialists, acupucturists and whathaveyou by the world's sweetest dada :) I love him so much. Plus i'm being spoilt by my mommy who complains that i'm fat yet relents and buys me cruchie bars, grandparents that bring me to eat such yummy yummy food ^^ Can't really ask for more, since i don't deserve what i already have :D Thankews Lord.
Maybe eventually the "it's always greener on the other side" diesease i've been plagued with would subside and it'll be safe to step out of quarantine.
Just a sideline for the curious: according to the western specialist, we've tried all western methods available, and the only ones left is a small operation with 50-60% success rate or a big operation with 90% success rate (but requires splitting my spine, with is ofcourse a very gross and painful thing to do). So now we're going to try Chinese methods like tueh nah and accupucture for abt a month or so. If all else fails, operating table here i come.
Current lyrics: Sad Clown
Current Album: If I left the zoo by Jars of Clay
Previous Album: The eleventh hour by Jars of Clay
Current replay: Reiterated Inspiration
