the beauty of.... shit.
 
I've never really appreciated shit. (till the serious constipation spell that afflicted many in CAP.) And i don't think anyone has every appreciated being called or refered to shit. Funny how i cld be so estatic when dav said i look like shit. or to be exact, "i feel like shit, but you sure look it!". Come to think of it now... i'm not that estatic. Call it a once in a lifetime experience. I rather not be compared with shit ever again.
 
Sometime you go thr this period of time where all yr troubles seemed to have resolved each other, and life starts to even out, and you just cling on and hope it isn't the eye of the storm :p. i sure hope not. especially since the next month if going to close and open a chapter of my life. For those who still don't know, i've quit acjc, and am currently slacking, shopping, and packing :) my parents have finally confirmed, that yes i am leaving for the states, and yes i'm going to purdue :) hurray for me! Now just need additional prayers for guidance and strength :)
 
Sis is trying to look for a cheap travel package to hong kong so that we can go shopping :D and to pig out at chinese good before it's gone! hehe. She has uwc friends there, so it'll be cool if we cld go. The packing list is almost done, hope i don't over pack. Still contemplating on whether to bring my skiing stuff. Most likely will only bring the essentials. neck gators and stuff cld be bought i guess :) i sure hope there's time to ski!
 
I've only missed two days of school technically, fri and today. But i kinda miss ac already... perhaps it's all in the mind cause i know i won't ever be going back (as a acjc student at least), but i miss the place and ofcourse the ppl. I heard that tomorrow's the gp package test, so good luck y'all! i'll be praying for ya!

cold white tiles and sterile walls

Funny how i always found hospitals fasinating... in a curious sense (no i'm not that morbid), the way gleneagles has these message boxes that wld zoom around on an overhead pole, moving into rooms through dog-flaps. Watching cable television in my mom's private hospital room when she had my bro. Throwing flowers around and eventually getting scolded by a nurse when my sister had to stay for some ... weird medical problem that i can't remember.

But i've never been to the ICU wards. Been underaged during the last few emergencies. Not anymore though. I've read books and stories written about the cold and unbearingly sterile feeling that one gets in the hospital and i've classified that under cliche bull. It's different though, when you know that this might be the last time you see your friend. And that when you're sitting in the room with another person, because of the visiting restrictions, listening to the beeping of the machinery, the slow rhythmic growls of the air conditioning unit, the neat mess of wires climbing, entwined with the cold metal bed... you just feel so bleeding helpless, at lost with what to say.

It's like there's just so much to say that you don't know where to start, or afraid that if you say what you have to, you won't have the chance to say it again. And you want that chance.

To he who wrote Tears, Idle Tears on my second copy of the Tempest, O Death in Life, the days that are no more! You will survive.

a breather. finally

The rat race tends to tire ppl out. I'm being prepared to enter the race and am already pretty burnt out. Makes me wonder how i'll fare in the reallll world >.< Oh well. Clarinet exam is over. I manage to make the dancing boots stomp at the right places and kept the fireflies alive. Hopefully. My scales were rather pathetic though. But i think i did well enough to pass. Merit wld be a grace. And a really nice bonus :)

The result for our terms came out earlier than expected. well... MUCH ealier than expected. I PASSED COMPUTING! (though on the dot hehe)this proves that i am no that hopeless after all. Hehe. The other subjects shldn't be mentioned :p but i still have math and GP to keep an eye out for. I guess my dada wld be confirming whether i'll be quitting school soon. That really depends on Mrs Kan's marking abilities and speed. Hope she marks faster. And gives brownie points :p

Somethings are too much to hope for i guess. But i managed to go shopping with my sis on youth day, banged into Issac and Bri *waves* :), had lunch with Jeremy (and got my cookies :) and books), spend lotsa money. Mommy let me take the rest of the day off on tuesday after my clarinet exam and i really really appreciate that :D She bought me new shoes too! Hehe such simple things in life should be thoroughly enjoyed. I'll miss these things much when i leave. And the Ikea lunches (mom brought me there on tues too!). Pecan pie *sighs*

Bliss

Broken wings won't ground me today!

maybe tomorrow hehe

yes! it's the end! i have made a flying leap out of the charred blackened surface of the hissing sizzling frying pan! and straight into the fire. I feel like a doomed ant. oh well.

when through chinese and math in a half drugged mode. ate the wrong medicine. took the drousy one (stupid me). but at least the terms are over. now i only have to worry about the results, my clarinet exam, my american visa, my chinese A level oral and my parents decision about going to the states. Oh, and my piano too. thinks my teacher wanted to call me stupid to my face, but felt bad so didn't.

ne'ways :)

oh yes. and to trish, peni, bri, dav y'all can use my place. (and no i don't want to know what party supplies you have) i needa go buy charcoal and fire starters. the rest shld be fine :)