Sleeeeepy >.< stayed in school till 7+ to finish off recording for tomorrow :p pretty fun if you ask me. But according to mommy..."you seem to be having so much fun in AC that yr forgetting to study!" if she only knew... *sigh* keeping me at hm wldn't work! Muahahahahaha :D Tomorrow is gonna be a long long long day. Lotsa things planned on saturday also. I wanna go watch Bright Future, the singapore interational film's jap show. But can't seem to find ppl to come along. Mich want's me to go to the VJ funfair, then after that is swimming at SSC. Most likely wld end up just going to ssc. x_x darn.

Another worksite blewup. Tell you... the MRT line really isn't worth that much damage. Kinda makes you think how sheltered we are. I'm sure the land mines in Cambodia and stuff are so much more destructive. Me on the other hand, fells so traumatized when I heard the news of Nicolle highway and the ECP. God really sheltered us soo much. And it just struck me now. I wonder whether drastic things have to happen before i realise God's blessing and grace.

Thank you Lord :)

current music: Chill house album by cafe del mar
saaavvvvvyyyyyyy! :)

hehe i'm so happy the misunderstanding has been cleared abt otah ^^. *dances* the performance by the string ensemble was soooo great (at ACM... brought back oh so found memories of Novae T_T) almost made me wish i played a string instrument (note: ALMOST) heh :p Clarinet rocks! (unless it's my neighbours talking) but now it's been repaired... i'm not squeaking all the time! It sounds pretty decient if i cld say so :) happy happy happy :) :) haha then after watching valval perform, squeezed into Dickson's car and went to Kenny Rogers! Where he treated us 'cept that it was my popo's b-day lunch at ssc, so i only picked off val, then rushed to ssc.

But on the downside... dada wldn't let me get meself a new hp... cause i yelled at my bro for changin' my radio station... i feel so stupid... shld have waited until AFTER i got my new hp before yellin' at him... hopefully next week wld have better offers!

God has heard my prayers :). Again i think it's kinda beautiful the way He handled everything... Like when i was upset abt my class, instead of removing the ppl i didn't really get along with, He added really nice ppl :). And i've been complaining alot abt my project wrk grp, and wahlah! He did the same thing. Though Sugy is still in my grp, Daryl (pussy in the well!) Wayne joined our grp. Not too bad really, since with Wayne around, Sugy's rather tamed. At least watching him and daryl parr off was kinda amusing :). I hope i haven't spoken too fast :p

Went to ps to fix my clarinet... and yamaha was closed... went to mg to take my result slip... the office was closed... just my luck eh? haha at least i didn't get lost. Uncle Ben said smthing really bad though... >.< grrrrr. He was like "so how's acjc? i can see you haven't practiced much. Do you have a boyfriend?" and i was like "no..." and then... he said "Are you sure yr straight? I mean it's perfectly fine to me! in fact, it's very common nowadays!" ... ... ... -_- NO I AM NOT!!! okay. i have nothing really against homos... i just like to establish the fact that i'm very very very straight. thank you. -_- bleurg. just because i'm not a bundle of raging hormones dosen't say anything... *pui* Besides, it's not like i'm going to devulge my whole lifestory to him... =_= practise or no practise :p

oh well. ^^

okay. today was a shitty day. i know it's unbecoming to waddle around in self-pity but gimme some time to gripe. Bleurg. Someone (*nudges trish*) was looking kinda down during swim meet, so i sat next to that (let the person be x) x, and tried to cheer x up. chattered away like a (fine -_-) monkey, and then guess what x said... ... "Tiff, if you need to learn just one thing, it's to shut up." I mean that was low. really. I mean being I personality, it did say our main prob was that we have an overtendancy to overexaggerate our actions unconsiously, both verbal and physically. Okay, i know i was making alot of noise in the canteen and maybe i deserved to get slapped or smthing, but i wasn't even screamin' at x, i mean.... sheesh, i was trying to make 'em fell better...

Piano tcher gave me looong enlightening talk yesterday which mommy kinda restated today. Smthing abt having no ties... uncle ben said smthing like wanting to get out of the country as soon as possible cause i didn't have any ties. I mean my best friend has been overseas for 2.5 yrs and i guess i'm still looking for a place to do well or smthing, that dumb lifelong questioning of where i belong. actually the more ppl are telling me this, the more i think i wldn't find it. Mommy wants me to fine a "rock" (her quote) weigh me back down to earth or smthing (more like s'pore. apparently dada thinks that once i go i won't come back) Uncle ben said again abt getting ties and decideding to stay. But i guess they'all want me to be happy. >.<

*sigh* and the more i think abt computing test the more i'm freakin' out. Bleuh. current resolutions:
1. shut up 2. stop wracking brain abt otah case 3. self control (don't waste moneeeey & do hw!) Hehe oooky must go listen to veggie tales :) :) happy happy joy joy! :p

Special messages for:
Jeremy aka cookie man: !@#$%*(@#$%^&*()! Nonononono no ears! i don't have furry ears! nononono! not monkey! am GIRL! GIRL! that picture is baaaaddd! take it off! bad bad bad! bad! (btw, you owe me cookie!)

Cherlyinni: Bluffer woman! you dao me! don't lie!

Andrew: think decapitated gummy bear -_-

Trish:... die.

YAY! hehe i bought the whole gensomaiden saiyuki set! :) :) i gotta start saving up to buy the saiyuki reloaded series. ^^ *happy happy joy joy* (and daryl starts to get nightmares :p ) hehe finally managed to find out whether Gary's a ballerina.. or balleriner or wateva you call the guys >< hehe Issac helped me ask... apparently noy :( oh well... Gary stared at me like i was an alien and asked me why (hehe) cldn't tell him the real reason so just told him he looks like he's foldable :p (which is true) he offered to tch me howta stretch. The way he does it looks devious though sooooooo hehe i'm no mascocist ... really!

Went for first jap lesson on monday... everyone is twice my age, and the sensei is at least 5 times my age :p hehe he dosen't speak gd english so he kinda conducted his lesson in a mix of chinese and jap... and mumbled to himself half the time sooooo hehe

Guides had outdoor cooking today! I miss mg soo much! Went back to sch with cheryliyo ^^. It was kinda late went i arrived *sigh* but i managed to catch most of the tchers (but not the canteen food :( ) oh well. It was kinda cool though, mr lim said i lost alota weight woohoooooo! *beams* then went to steal marshmellows and chips from my juniors :p nicole wrote "tiffy wiffy stole food" all over palm but i scrubbed it off hehe :p

Nyaninyaninia! :)

phewf. yesterday was busy day :p went to corona in the mornin' to choose materials for our pond ^^ such a cool place (expect for the killer mosquitos), went to the tc "meeting" (hehe) in the afternoon and had pizza hut. Managed to get some *ahem* one to pay for me lunch. muaahahahahaa i rule! *dances* j/k hehe then went for clarinet lesson, then swam, ate dinner and went to Conrad! :) :)

aunt from london came to visit, and so we went over. after that we went down to oscar's for icecream! and i had "as good as it gets" my gosh! it was HUGE! it came in this super large wine glass, 4 scoops of icecream, and biscotti inside! Whoa! :) :) :) and ate nice fries too ^^ *happy happy* made daddy take a picture of it hehe so cool! (but fattening :( ) sigh... oh well. Life is short! *nods crazily*

Good friday :) for He has risen :) :) we're saved! hehe *dances* i cld sing of yr love foreva! wooohoooooo!

haha :p unfortunately, good friday dosen't mean i can skip studying for gp... *sigh* hehe :) been reading the anti-SAT article in our GP package... *rolls eyes* if they cld only see what we go thr for PSLE, Os and As... Oh my child believes the the 3 hr test will determine their lives -_- wanna compare the kids that commited sucide for SAT and Os, As? Welcome to S'pore my dear bubble wrapped ignorant... ... (don't wanna get sued hehe)

Watched Hildago yesterday! It's such a great great great movie! The music was great, the scenery and horses were magnificant... I wanna horsey! Plleaaaseeee! hehe must go buy the soundtrack! Viggo dosen't look that great with blond hair, but he's a great actor! Perfect for the role! :)

actually had a hard time choosing... so shall adopt another one!



hehe :)

I TAKE IT BACK!!!! school is not getting better... nope nope no. #$%^&*( project work grp... of all luck... *sigh* was praying so hard that i wldn't get preps...

I think God's trying to teach me abt tolerance here ... *sigh* i.must.not.growl.or.make.sarcastic. comments.at.sugi. ..... definately challenging with my new self-discipline plan... *bangs head on table* this is the end of me!

Tralalalala lalalala... heh :p having free period now! ^^ another advantage of computing :) all you science sucker out there ... too bad :) :) hehe just kidding.

School has been... okay lar i guess, econs test was oky, (at least i think i knew what i was doing)... Have been slacking like crazy... not a single sheet of homework has been done at home hehe. *sigh* must master the skill of self-discipline... yes! heh. *cheers for self* -_- wateva... Piano was pretty fine too... cause Uncle Ben spent most of the lesson inquiring abt AC ... keeps trying to set me up with that kami vijaya or smthing... rich indo kid that speaks fluent canto [i heard frm grace that Uncle ben is worried that i wldn't get married =_= isn't a but too early to judge... *growls*]

Mommy wants me to write a full week schedule for her every week... that's like massive bullshitting time... says that it's a good habit, but i gotta learn how to follow my schedule first hehe.

Michy, if you read this... i can't get anyone to go to the concert with me! Fiofio and the other all have things on! Xinxin'en dosen't wanna pay 20 bucks... so T_T dunno whether i can come... shall check with cheryl, but no promises!

ooooooooooooooooky doo! shall go watch somemore trailers ^^ loove msn!

Monday blues... belurg.

Okay... maybe not just monday blues, let's makes that weekday blues :p. Tomorrow there's econs test T_T after 1 wk of econs, i'm having a test on smthing we didn't cover in that week. Go me. =_= sleeepy. *double sigh* Wonder what mommy wld say if i flunked my first test hehe x_x

shoooooooot me.

Read Catcher in the rye again hehe 15th time :) :) soooo related to my life. Makes teenage angst so ... unteenage angst :p JD Salinger!!! Yr the man! He defines preps sooo perfectly! Hehe ^^

Going to tear up my econs TYS! >.<

Palm sunday!!!

Hehe :p sorry, had the urge to do that. Some guy went thr the details of Jesus' suffering and crucification in sunday sch today... i was rather grossed out at how cruel the Romans are... the cat o nine tails flog thingy... apparently it's 18 stitches for one gash, 9 tails so it's 162 stitches from 1 whiplash... can you imagine what happens if the lash you from back to ankle? *shudders* brutal. I think my kids were all kinda creeped out. I mean P4-P6 kids prob never thought abt it, but He really did suffer soooo much for us... I be damned if i don't say this, so... THANK YOU LORD!!!! :) :)

Later we dropped my bro off at some fluffy bunny party or smthing like that and went to geylang to eat. I mean geylang is supposed to be famous for chicken rice, but i didn't see no chicken rice! had craving for fried chicken (<<< my enemy!) Oh well. At least got durians after that ^^. Went to my grandma (dad's side) place to eat, but then everything kinda downsloped. My dad reversed the car into their place and then i heard this loud thumping comin' from behind... apparently my aunt (dad's big sis) said that my dad was crazy to reverse in cause the fumes wld pollute the house, & told my dad to get out and park properly. Dad switched off his engine and said no more fumes, cause it'll be stupid to re-park, more pollution. She told us again to get out so dad blew up. They started screaming at each other... i was sooo freaked.

Trust me, my aunt is SCARY! I hate it when family members fight. But trust me, this aunt is a nono. I was always very scared of her, cause she's really superstisious, and wld scold me if i wore black or did smthing "unlucky". And her words are really biting. Kinda makes you wanna dig a hole and die. But we went into the house anyway. Half way thr the durians she started asking us to get out and never come back, and grandma was like "this is my house! not yrs!" go granny! But she still yelled and stuff... i don't think i ever wanna go back...

When I get married, i'm going to make sure my inlaws are decent ppl... I shall break the stereotype! Go me! Hehe >.< mommy says that when some guy comes and sweeps me off my feet, inlaws wldn't really matter. We shall see! I mix much better (and is much closer) to my mom's side. Love my grandparents! Free icecream and toffee :) and my uncle is coooooool hehe. I hope everthing resolves itself though... i HATE family fuedes.

Hehe am at computing practical lesson now... muahahaha >< hehe :p

School... is getting better lar... Heh. My classmates are still a bit intimidating, but... Hopefully i'm getting over it. Hehe. Finally decieded on what cca to join... Tech Council... I don't know what possessed me, but when i found out that the photography club has practices on saturday, i decieded that it was the wrong cca to join hehe. I already have clarinet lesson on satuday! no way am i going to give up more of my weekend!

Sigh... lotsa new ppl joined my class, so it's a little more diverse... like by 1 or 2 percent hehe. Still rather scary though... Bleurg. Plus the fact that i have an econs test next week... Yucky poo.

Wondering about a P24 meeting... what say y'all? Maybe we can pretend to be 18 and above and try sneaking into Passion of Christ? Pllleeeeaaaaaaaaasseeeeee! hehe ^^